October 31, 2008

Friday Thoughts

FOR TODAY: October 31, 2008

Outside My Window... the rain is still not serious about Fall. The golden leaves are just waiting for a good storm to knock them off and send them on a wild ride!
I am thinking... it is good to love the Lord. I found it very irritating as a teen, when my Grandma Ina would ask me about some of my friends, "Does he love the Lord? In my religious and righteous self, I thought there were more important things to assess than just their love for God. (what about how well they perform?) But it's true. His heart wants our heart's love. "You shall love the Lord your God with ALL your heart..."
I am thankful for... oatmeal cookies with butterscotch chips.
From the kitchen... the dishwasher will get my time when I get back from class!
I am wearing... a warm cotton sweater and jeans, and more moisturizer on my skin than I would have imagined wanting just a few years ago. Yup, it's drying up after age 50!
I am creating... a new family-flock of chickens. I have acquired 5 Silver-Spangled Hamburg bantams. One of them is a young cockerel who is strutting his stuff in front of his captive hen audience. He'll have them all to himself for a week in the coop before I will let them out to free-range. He's more comical than any cartoon character on the planet!
I am going... to Dave Ramsey's Live Event tomorrow in Portland, OR. My husband and I are volunteers to help manage the tables.
I am reading... John Eldredge's book, Waking the Dead.
I am hoping... to get 4 more assignments done this afternoon.
I am hearing... big raindrops hitting my skylight.
Around the house... it's quiet and still, with the fire crackling randomly in the wood stove.
One of my favorite things... drool running out of my grandson's wide smile.
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:
Here is picture thought I am sharing...I'm still enjoying my memories of Zambia.
Would someone like to tell me how to make the image button perform its function, so I can upload a picture here - within this text area? Usually, when I select it, a dialog box just flickers and disappears. Thank you!

October 21, 2008

My Weakness... is enough

In my smallness, I will praise Him
In my weakness and my pain
I will praise Him

Whom have I in heaven, but You?
And ya know, beside You I desire nothing on earth.
My body and my resolve may fail,
but You are the strength of Kathy,
and all I want or need forever. (from Psalm 37)

I sat heavily into the worn, padded seat on the small bus heading into the saddest area of Ndola, Zambia. The before lively group of teenage Zambians grew increasingly quiet, as it seemed the weight of the world descended in their minds.

Those of us with whiter faces were taking it all in, but not really understanding. Brian noticed my cluelessness and explained, “This is one of our graveyards. It is full now, and more graveyards are being developed to bury all our dead.”

I’d never heard of a shortage of graveyards before. What was I doing there, anyway? What did I have to offer this hurting people? Just hours before we had worshipped with them, with their music, with their peers, learning their songs, trying to dance their dances, and now I sat and grieved with them.

It seemed the people on the dirt road felt the heaviness, too, as they plodded along in their Zambian walking rhythm. I must not have looked closely, because I don’t remember seeing graves, just a large plot of earth with no buildings. Maybe I was expecting bleached-white headstones in perfect rows, like I’d seen in military cemeteries.

I told Brian about my helpless feelings, and he reassured me. “It is enough to know that you are here with us. The people can tell that you care.”

With my eyes squinting out the window into the sun, I thought, “but that is just not good enough. I worked hard to get here, and at great expense. I don’t feel that I am contributing anything at all.”

But Brian had said, “it is enough”.

So, in my weakness, I imagined that I was holding up my empty hands to God. What else could I do, but praise Him?

He is God. He rules over all. He comforts the hurting. He heals the broken. He restores what was lost. He promises heaven to those who call out to Him. He works in His mysterious ways, because He is God. I have to trust Him. It is enough.


October 17, 2008

Simply Busy Woman entry

FOR TODAY Friday, October 17
Outside My Window... daylight has arrived in soft, foggy grays.
I am thinking... I now have the busy, productive work and learning schedule I've been wanting for so long.
I am thankful for... my warm, quiet house.
From the kitchen... a bag of frozen crock-pot makin's is waiting in the sink. Chicken and dumplings for dinner tonight, yum!
I am wearing... my sweatshirt no longer - a hot flash just hit!
I am creating... a plan for juggling my homework, proofreading, and transcribing.
I am going... to school in 3 hours.
I am reading... "The Shack," by William P. Young. I highly, highly, highly recommend it.
I am hoping... to get a chicken cage built tomorrow. A small flock of Silver-Spangled Hamburg Bantams are likely showing up next week, THEN we can work on the coop!
I am hearing... a large truck coming up my road. It's not a garbage truck - it came yesterday. Must be some road work going on (we live on gravel), or logging, or farm-related.
Around the house... things are lookin' pretty good. A trunk- and backseat-full went to Goodwill yesterday.
One of my favorite things... believe it or not, the first thing that came to my mind is a toilet! Glad it's there when I need one!
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: my first transcribing job done by Saturday evening, homework caught up, proofing up to speed (196 pages to go!), and getting some firewood in.
Here is picture thought I am sharing... well, once again, the image button won't follow through for me.

October 7, 2008

Simple Woman - Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Outside My Window...the sun is warming the soaked ground and the kitties are looking for little bugs to pounce on.
I am thinking... too much about getting some chickens.
I am thankful for... my wonderful husband.
From the kitchen... the pork is thawing in the sink.
I am wearing... my hair pinned up at the sides.
I am creating... a new life-work by studying and exploring my options.
I am going... to take two packages to the post office.
I am reading... Thou Shall Prosper, by Rabbi Daniel Lapin
I am hoping... I get a good score on my anatomy and physiology exam!
I am hearing... silence, but for the hum of my computer's fan and the keys clicking.
Around the house... three empty bedrooms - my daughter is housesitting and everyone else has moved out.
One of my favorite things... a clean handkerchief.
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: after my exam and swim, I plan to meet Bonnie tomorrow for some girl time.
Here is picture thought I am sharing...View of Colorado from my husband's hunting trip (whoops, the insert image button doesn't work again!)